It's been a hard week for me for some reason. I can speculate what the triggers are and why it's happening, but it doesn't really matter. Life just feels a little hard right now. Things feel overwhelming. Grief is rearing it's ugly head in unexpected moments and with unexpected feelings. On Monday, I had a mini meltdown after the cleaning crew came in and packed up my entire basement leaving me feeling very vulnerable; like I just let the world see the mess that was my basement, and really felt like the mess that is inside of me. The mess of feelings, uncertainties, and looming questions gone unanswered. I messaged my friend who keeps me company during the days with a running conversation. I told her all that I mentioned above. I told her life felt hard right now and the feelings felt BIG...too BIG.
Later this week my friend sent me the following article. I was going to try and articulate how all that she said reiterated all that I was feeling. But instead I think I'll let you read it for yourself.
My prayers for you all is that this week you are able to sit with your suffering, look it in the face, and let someone else in. Life is indeed hard sometimes. We all have our crosses to bear. Don't feel like you have to carry that cross alone. Don't feel bad for admitting that your cross is too heavy right now. Find a friend or confidant to carry your cross with you.
We wait until heaven....
I am so sorry for your loss and your grief, but happy that you found some comfort (or at least familiarity) in my writing. Thanks for stopping by. I will pray for you and your beautiful family, the ones here and in heaven both. Peace to you.
ReplyDeleteThank You, Christy. Beautifully written. I'm glad you were able to see this so you can know that you've touched other's lives.
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